You, My Dear Past..

To : My Dearest "E"

Do you still remember me?

When we first met in another world?

Do you still remember my name when you always call me?

I still remember you.

Even until now.

I remember when we first met.

You always call me Miu

I always call you Silvance.

We always together that time, we laugh and happy together.

We've hunt together, help each other.

You introduce me with your friends.

I smiled. I laugh.

To make you happy, to make you comfortable at my side.

You're so friendly and kind.
Too much.

I was so happy that I know you.

You always accompany me wherever and whenever you are.

Your friends are awesome too.

But I realize, it was just about 5 years ago.

I'm just a little child that didnt know anything

I still have a great ego and foolish that time

And you're too good for me.

We're not in same age.
We're not in same place.

I introduce myself named Eva Brawn

And you introduce yourself named "E".

What a beautiful name.

What I made is not my real name.

I wear a jester mask.

You wear your most honestly mask.

I was securing my true identity.

I dont want to be known as a child.

Then I decided to act like a grown up girl.

To be fit to your side.

But you, you tell me everything.

That makes me so sad.

I'm desperately in love with you.

And I think you too, that time.

But I decided not to have a relationship.

I dont want to hurt someone.
But, I realize I've already do.

I'm the mysterious girl.

You're the honest boy.

I'm so sad inside my heart.

I've been so lied to you from the beginning.

I'm a great liar.

I always do.

After all we've been through.

At last, you know the truth.
You gonna see things you might now wanna see.
Still not easy for me.

You discover something you dont know.

Something so mysterious about me you must know
You look beyond the lies, that you've already known.

I know all of this gonna happen, soon.

I just dont ready, and I dont act anything.

You know the real me.

My real identity.

Not all, but enough to make you disappointed so badly

You're so disappointed.

And I'm too scared.

To look and face you.

So I ran away, I sealed myself under the dark.
 Far away from you.
Loud voice of scream.
Tears in my eyes.
Look at me, now do you see?
Welcome to my world of lies.
Actually I dont wanna hide any part of me from you.

I finally face my most fearsome day.

I cried, I scared, I screaming.

I'm regret about one thing.

Why didnt I just leave you when we're not desperately in love?

I make my biggest mistakes.

I make my own sins.
I'm standing here with much of apologies.
But yet, such a beautiful release you inside of me.

You're too good for me.

And you've been ruined by me.

5 years ago memories cant leave my life.

I deserved this sins in me.

Though I regret it.

But I feel something that is so beautiful.

Feeling that pure love.

I'm happy I can feel that love, even in the end I feel suffer.

I have the most wonderful yet horrible memories.

And I deserved it, its my fault.

I  will stop creating some mask to cover my own self.

I want to be honest like you.

We're all exist, but our another world isnt.

Thank you for everything that you gave to me.

Thank you, you make me learn so much.

Honest and Love.

Can I ask you something?

Where do you go?

Did you finally has someone in your heart now?

If its true. She so lucky to have you.

You're the most gentle man I've ever met.

I hope I have a second chance.

To be honest to you and tell you everything about me.

My true form that I always hide it from you.

At least let me met you.

I'll ask for your forgiveness.

I'm so sorry for what I've been done to you.

And I thank you for everything that has been happening between you and me.

It was a wonderful days with you!

You're now disappear without a track.

I realize I cant hope much to met you.
Please, never mind was on the left.

O, someone who made this picture to me when my birth day comes.

I bit you goodbye.

I hope you are well with your new life without me.

Live happily.

I'm so sorry and thank you.

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All of my memories lies in this picture. This is the last thing that can remind me of you.
I always remember, you really love the Forget-Me-Not Flowers and Sunflowers, and you love to edit picture like what you did to the Dream of Dolls and others.
Your detective skill is un-match-able. I hope you're graduated from your Law College and be what you wanna be.
I still listening the RAN musics like you always said and like, it was really a good music. You really have a good taste of music, do you? And do you still hate Michael Jackson? Please dont :")
I still remember your unique language. Your optimistic. Your bishounen face. And your name. It lies within me.

I still remember the game we've been played. Ragnarok Online.